I hate my life. Seriously, there are times which I cannot fathom the amount of bitterness within me. I hate what I am doing now.

Exams are like a few months away. It's not like I am incapable of passing. It's just that I have no motivation to go on studying. All that I have on my mind is : making money, partying and slacking.

I hate myself so much. My life had been going on well. I used to do some tutorials at least. But now, I don't even bother to doing anything at all.

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People come, people go -

They'll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favourite book.

When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again

with another book, complete with new characters and adventures.

Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the one from the past.

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Though I'm still grieving over what might have been, I find myself thankful that you came into my life for even a short period of time. Ironically, I am in the same position you were. As I write, I am struggling with the ghost of someone I loved and lost. I now fully understand more fully the difficulties you were going through, and I realise how painful it must have been for you to make a choice.

Sometimes my grief is overwhelming, and even though I understand that we might never see each other again, there is a part of me that wants to hold on to you forever.It wouldn't be easy for me to do that because loving someone else might diminish my memories of you.

Yet, this is the paradox. Even though I miss you greatly, it's because of you that I don't dread the future. Because you have given me hope, my darling. You taught me that it's possible to move forward in life. And in your own way, you've made me believe that true love cannot be denied.

Right now, I don't know whether I'm ready for another guy besides you just yet. But this is my choice, do not blame yourself. Because of you. I am hopeful that there will come a day when my sadness is replaced by something beautiful. Because of you, I have the strength to go on.

I will sense your presence everywhere. You're not gone forever, no matter who comes into my life. You're in my heart, alongside my soul, helping to guide me toward a future that I cannot predict.

This is not good-bye, my darling, this is a thank-you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go.

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