Thank you for being so decisive, too decisive in fact,
i cannot act that cool about it,
but i'l try and it is a blessing in disguise i guess.
You are the first to crack the nut and it was my first feeling hurt.
I guess I felt it was that something eversince but just did not acknowledge it.
Now this feeling ohsosucks.
Thanks for the experience nevertheless.
You have prevented a pherhaps worst scenario than this.
I shall and will move on and aint allowing this to affect me
because its just not worth it.

❤❤❤

Sometimes, there are things you can never understand
Just like how your bf can tell you one day he doesnt love you anymore.
Sometimes, you try not to read too much into it
Because you know it dont mean much anyway.
Sometimes you are just tired of building this image
Because it doesnt make much of an impression anyway.

Let's jus keep it real man, keep it real.

When you are too nice, too forgivable, too endurable, too easy to please, too eager to please, too easily contented, too attentive, too blah blah blah,

People exploit you.
They take advantage of the situation, attack your weakness, they take charge, they take you down and took full control.

Leaving you no space to breathe, no time to react, emotions take over, too much too bear, too emotional, you couldnt think, you have no time to think, you dont want to think about it. You take it all and swallow it down.

But pls pls pls, dont test my patience, dont test my endurance, dont test my level of kindeness, dont measure my love and calculate your benefits and losses, dont test my instincts, my intuition, dont test my trust, dont test me.

I cant feel anything, anymore

>
Dont prove yourself over and over again.
They say you cant control your emotions, but you can owe them.
I'm reaching there again, going even lower than before.
They say they have issues,
I tell them i have too,
you want/care to listen to mine?
what could a hedonista cost you?
Or rather what could being a hedonista cost you?
studies? quality time? reputation? friend? other friends?

its's just a phase, i just know.
because time never stops and that changes things.
so dont come crying when september ends,
because there's a price to pay for being one.
Dont even think about it, you can never afford it
And its the price of something you build,
but chose to ruin it
he told me that's part and parcel of life ya know.
to go through all these.
and sometimes you jus have to face the truth and let it go.
let it go.

I almost wanted to burst out crying hearing that.
he look at me as a matter-of-factly,
as if he's been through worse than this,
and said ' its ok, you still have us, me, you can call me, we can have dinner after the exercise.'
I feel a short relief, but i know that's not solving the root of it.
Stick to my stand or come out of it.
Do something i say.
We'll take it as it comes,
i'll go with my gut feel, my heart,
and my pea-brain.

p.s i hate sneakiness and manipulation and all other things that irks the hell out of me. i'll choose to ignore you and talk to myself.

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your ex-lover is dead.

It's nothing but time and a face that you'll lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard,
I'll send you the news
From the house down the road, from real love

Live through this and you won't look back

There's one thing I have to say so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted,
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

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imagine me and you.

Love's good when its right and when its left in your memory.
the application letter is REJECTED due to breaching of contract
(Reason being: violation of the terms and conditions)

Cause I hated the heartbreak, crying and cheating, the fooling around

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Sometimes its the false hope we hold on to that keeps us from moving on. its very hard to accept the relationship is over.

Maybe the only time when we truly accept the relationship is overwhen we see him with someone new.

I think false hope is like a doube edged sword.
the breakup hurts us badly intially and we feel slightly better after a week.
the real pain only comes only we realised he's found someone new already after few mths.

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I realise that it is silly trying to hide these letters from you.
Even if you cannot read my letters you can still read my heart, and the love I feel for you inside.
I love you and try as I might, I can never ever deny that.

So here I am again.

Telling you all over again, how much you mean to me.
Much. Much more than I ever imagined.
Much more than you could ever guess.

I am glad you came into my life.

❤❤❤

You must know that I do not love and that I love you,
because everything alive has its two sides;
a word is one wing of the silence,
fire has its cold half.

I love you in order to begin to love you,
to start infinity again
and never to stop loving you:
that's why I do not love you yet.

I love you, and I do not love you,
as if I held keys in my hand,
to a future of joy-a wretched, muddled fate
-My love has two lives, in order to love you:
that's why I love you when I do not love you,
and also why I love you when I do

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I miss you.

I want you so much that I actually feel my body weaken at the very thought of you, my chest sinking into my stomach, and my heart collapsing into itself.

I cannot stand the thought of being apart from you, yet I know that this is the only way for us - for now.

I wondered if our encounter was only physical attraction. Perhaps in a small way, I may have hoped that it would be - a simple and convenient choice, devoid of emotions. Yet in matters of emotions, the brain can never deny what the heart longs for.

This heart longs for you. Just as these arms long to embrace you. Just as these lips long to touch yours. Just as these ears long to hear you laugh. Just as this nose longs to breathe in your fragrance. And just as these hands long to hold yours.

It frightens me.
It frightens me that I may never know how to let you go, should you ever need me to.

❤❤❤

In the course of the last few weeks, I found myself falling deeper and deeper in love with you.
It has come to a point where I cannot go through a day without thinking of you, and thinking of the things I would like to do with you.

I wonder if there could be more for us. At the very same time, I find myself deliberately pushing these thoughts to the back of my mind.

Perhaps I think too much.
Because of the circumstances that we are in, I fear that it could all end in disappointment. I fear that I would never see you again. I worry that you would never want to see me again. And I do not not how much of that I would be able to take.

❤❤❤

I M PROUD TO DECLARE TT IM HAPPILY ATTACHED TO THE SEXIEST MAN ON EARTH.

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I cannot shake the memory of last night from my head.
It will linger for awhile.
Just as your scent would. I can still smell you.
I can still taste you on my lips.
I still hear you in my head.
I see you when I close my eyes.


White is so your colour.

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audrey can be such a bitch. HA! i love the bitchy side of her.


the muchneeded perpetual anesthesia says:
when i saw the pic of her and her friend at an old folks home
the muchneeded perpetual anesthesia says:
for a sec i tot she looks like one of the old folks staying there
audrey - we could sleep together under the star-smeared sky says:
hahahahha

audrey - we could sleep together under the star-smeared sky says:
she puts the "fun" in dysfunctional
the muchneeded perpetual anesthesia says:
i bet all his friends in team singapore confirm also laugh at him!!!
the muchneeded perpetual anesthesia says:
how come he so fit. the girl looks like chau siew bao

audrey - we could sleep together under the star-smeared sky says:
she needs to dial 1800-i need a life-i need a life
the muchneeded perpetual anesthesia says:
LOL!!!
the muchneeded perpetual anesthesia says:
AUD! U CAN BE SUCH A BITCH
audrey - we could sleep together under the star-smeared sky says:
mirrors can't talk. and lucky for her, they can't laugh either. (but we can - WAHAHAHA)


I LOVE AUD.

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I might have loved someone deeply before, but now maybe I'll laugh when I see him and wonder if Chivas made me so short-sighted in love that I fell for someone like that

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do you believe in love at first sight?

or should i come by again..



<3

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it takes no time to fall in love.
intellectual compatibility ranks high in my list.
after some contemplation and a weak attempt,
I reckon its not worth letting it go
.so if you want it, knock it off letter by letter.



if you're both players, who's the banker?

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I wasnt good enough for you
Just like how I feel enough is never enough
And when I felt its enough and I am contented
You feel that I am not good enough
And I felt I wasnt good enough
And that proves enough is never enough

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me. haircut. big glasses. topshop bikini. beach. sun.sexy gf. make a nice picture.

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